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I've refrained my whole life from creating (in a very broad sense) out of a primal, prerational fear that the end result would not be good enough--which is to say that it would not be perfect--with the implication that I would not be good enough. I manage to get things done only when fear of something else--fear of abject failure, usually--overcomes the first fear enough that I can get to work.

This is why I am not yet rich, famous, or powerful. I really should find another way to go about my life.

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I just saw Gangs of New York. I'm sure that after I've had some time to process it some more, I'll be able to say a lot about it, if I feel like it.

One point for now, though, that really has very little to do with the movie. I have rarely felt as though I belonged to anything. But this moment I feel that I belong to New York City and that it belongs to me. It's an odd feeling, but I think I like it.

(Those of you who were born and raised in New York City should feel free to regard this as a presumption on my part. Then again, you should also feel free not to.)

A Thought on Watching the Grammy Awards

You know the world is fucked up when the best rapper's white and the best golfer's black.

--Charles Barkley