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[lawnrrd]

I've been in therapy for a few years. I don't like to talk about it much, mostly because when other people say, "Well, my therapist says . . . ," they are usually so whiny that I want to hit them. But today's session produced some very disturbing thoughts, and I want to put them down so I can poke them with sticks and see how they react.

• Maybe I feel like myself only when I'm unhappy.


• Maybe only suffering feels real to me.

Comments

[lawnrrd]

Well, there are plenty of opportunities for me to have abandonment issues. But in this regard, I think it's mostly that I take after my mother.

[furchild.livejournal.com]

Wow, that would really really suck. Does that mean that you are in fact content with being unhappy in a way?

[lawnrrd]

No, I don't think so, although it helps explain why I have periodic bouts of self-loathing.