I'm Still Here

[lawnrrd]

I haven't updated in a while, but I'm still around and kicking. I just got back from Washington, and now I'm getting ready to leave very, very early tomorrow for the Virgin Islands.

My head's been in a bad place for a few weeks now. It's mostly because I'm stuck again, obsessed with the ways I feel my life is headed uncontrollably down paths I don't want to go, and there's far too much self-pity taking place, too.

I keep telling myself that I know perfectly well what the problems are, and that I need to put a shred of this effort into trying to deal with them, but I haven't been able to do so yet. And this obsession is filling me with stress and sapping my energy and destroying my concentration.

It's also been why I haven't been motivated to post lately.

Comments

[roadnotes.livejournal.com]

You're under a lot of stress, both good and bad. Be gentle and generous with yourself, okay?

[fimbrethil.livejournal.com]

Ah, this is familiar territory for me as well and I understand it's difficult. I'm sorry you are under so much stress right now and I hope you are able to find your way without too many hurdles. Also, what Velma said, be good to yourself. It's good to see you posting.

[evangelisa.livejournal.com]

sorry to hear that, though it *does* make sense.

try to enjoy your vacation and let's talk when you get back.