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[lawnrrd]

It was a bad night tonight, despite the presence of things that reliably cheer me up, like strong winds, good friends, and piano bar. For the first time, I felt worse after leaving Rose's than when I got there.

There's something growing, something changing in me, and the barriers I reflexively put around it aren't holding. Sometimes I can be detached enough to wonder what will be left standing afterwards when it finally gets loose.

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[roadnotes.livejournal.com]

"There's something growing, something changing in me, and the barriers I reflexively put around it aren't holding. Sometimes I can be detached enough to wonder what will be left standing afterwards when it finally gets loose."

I could say that the good in you will still be there, if your strengths are based in resiliency -- but even though that's been my experience, it's never been possible for me to feel truly confident about that fact before the major change happens.

what was it about last nite?

[evangelisa.livejournal.com]

after a lovely dinner where we didn't talk about work, I found myself sobbing in my hotel room and having frightening dreams of resentment toward my brother.

i don't know what's up--maybe it's isabel in the air?

as my therapist says: "go with it" (like riding a wave, try not to fight it so much) seems important that you're noticing.

[starkyld.livejournal.com]

me and you, we talk soon.